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My Mirror

Mirrors are false. They are not true reflections of who we are. My sweet husband, Freddo, reminds me of this truth constantly. I do need to hear it regularly…or perhaps I don’t need to hear it so often, as I need to believe it when he declares it to me. He even showed me one time by flexing the mirror one way or the other, how it has the ability to change my appearance. I was shocked. I saw it with my own eyes and yet to this day…I have trouble accepting that truth.

I know because I have tried. I know that the enemy of my soul doesn’t want me to find the truth. He wants me to be stuck in the world of “never good enough”. The pursuit of perfection has always left me wanting. I need to be a better mom, wife, Christian, house keeper, worker, driver, gardener, cook, decorator, hostess, church member, teacher, daughter, daughter-in-law, friend, diabetic…the list goes on and on. I need to be thinner, prettier, blonder, more in style…perhaps you know the drill…

When I look in the mirror I don’t really see who I am…I see who I am not compared to “others” in my mind. The “others” I speak of may be people I know well, or it may even be another I have never even met. But you see, I allow Satan to keep me so busy pursuing who I think I ought to be, that I miss the opportunity to see myself as Christ does.

In the Bible God tells me that I am dearly loved. I am the apple of His eye. I am fearfully and wonderfully made. And all those things are true and vitally important, but I still miss the point when I look to His Word just to find who I am. What I believe He desires me to find is who He is. When I do that my focus becomes correct for the first time, since it is on Him alone. He is light. He is truth. He is the lover of my soul. He is my hope. He is my peace. He is my constant. He is faithful. He is all knowing. He is NEVER going to leave me alone (no matter what). He chose me and I am truly loved and cared for by Him!

Oh, why is it so hard to stay focused on these truths? Why is the world so tempting? The Bible says that the Devil prowls around like a lion, seeking whom he may devour. Standing strong in Christ and leaning on the truths of His Word alone, THAT is going to keep me focused. Refocusing my gaze, each time I get distracted. This world is a lure, because I am human. I must remain alert to my tendency to be distracted and not allow myself to be pulled in.

Jesus, the Light of this world, is what keeps me from being ensnared by all of the lies I have believed. I have been playing this perfection game for 30 years or more. I don’t know where is started, and truly that doesn’t even matter. What I do know is that leaning on Christ alone is the way to stop it. Reading His Word and filling my mind with His truths, replacing the lies that I tell myself is part of the solution, but the majority of the answer lies in my focus. When I focus on Christ, and allow my gaze to linger on Him throughout the day, no matter what I am doing…then and only then will I begin to see more clearly who I am, because only then does everything else fall from my view and my image in the mirror become clear, as I allow Him to be my mirror.


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